(18 October 2008)
TOURTURING WEEK.
I can say this week is the most interesting,exciting and relaxing week compare to the examination week. But the
examination week compare to the this week is less tourturing because the physical and mental is 50-50 but this
week the physical and mental touturing is 100 percent each. As from Tuesday till Friday i go throught the beauty
course which i need to draw the eyesliner and eyes lashes that is counted a mental touture. As on Friday i did not
have the time to have my breadfast so for the whole day i got a gestrict pain and for that i wasted half of the day
sleeping. I feel that the pain is a physical touturing. Hope that as i go through and overcome all this touturing i
may be able to learnt something and learnt my lesson.
(28 October 2008)
WHAT A WEEK.
This week was quite ok as i spend sometime to read some of the book that i buy,spend sometime to bowl! But the
scores were not good as i had expected before playing. The scores are 117,108,159,122. As i was playing i cut my
thumb and fourth finger as i had insert my finger to deep. For the rest of the days i was like slacking in school
except in POA and MATHEMATICS lesson. This week sermon was quite interesting as it is about the priviege of
praying aswe live in the kingdom of god. Through the sermon i feel that i should not fear about praying in front
of prebeliever, pray in front of my parent,pray a blessing for someone or close a pray after processing. I think
after this week i will try to spend more time to do QT and pray. It since that the long time i do QT was long
before examination or even long ago. Hope that i can find back the frist love, first touch that i receive from
god so that i may continue to the cherish the love from god. I also hope that i may be able to have a fruitful
week and holiday.
NICK VUJICIC!
On next Sunday 9 Nov thi s amazing guy called NICK VUJICIC is coming to my church to give a talk about his life.
If you wonder why i say he is a amazing guy as he born limbless so he had to face greater life struggle and
amazingly he had blessed over 1,000,000 hearts worldwide than remarkable lifw story. So i encourage all of you to
come and be inspired by this 25 year old Australian born motivational speaker who has been tremendous source of
hope and strength to others. The last time he came to my church is 2 Dec 2007 and his sharing is really very
interesting, motivating and it will made you feel about things we have.
(29 October 2008)
FEELING OF MUSIC AROUND ME.
If you asked why i suddenly have the idea to blog about the feeling i have towards music around me is because
i had come a cross a post from one of my friend's blog. Her post is about why she like English song and artist but
not Chinese song and artist. Why after reading her blog i wanted to blog is because she says"Chinese song is generally
boring as most of the songs is ballads, the lyrics are often repeatedly used in different songs. I think why she says
that is mostly because she don't really listen to lots of music in chinese. She is basically a English song fan that why
Chinese song also has lots of genes she never listen before. As Chinese song not only have ballads but there is rock,punk-rock
ballads-rock,happy-rock,Jazz,funky,pop,classic and the mixing of pop and traditional chinese style, pop mixing with rock.
So hope more people will support both chinese and English music and artists.
(1 November 2008)
WHAT A BAD DAY!
Yesterday really is a bad day to me as i was happily going for bowling. As i was getting down the bus with my bowling
bag to the bowling centre for bowling training i fall of the bus lucky i never cut my leg of hand but i sprain my left leg
ankle. Anyway really want to thank the two Jurong Junior college student that hold on to me, if they never help me i
think i will have a cut on my leg or hand. That is still not the worse thing, the worse thing is i am such a pig
because after i sprain my leg i still go for bowling training. At first i think it should be quite pain when i do the finish
position but after i do it was ok so i did not care about it and continue training. But after i went home i regreat about
it because my ankle is swellen! After i went home my mum keep scolding me "Don't stay at home la. Go bowling la.
If you sprain your leg should go home what,still go then your ankle get swellen." My mum one side nag,one side apply
oil and rub the wound for me. The MUST WORES part is my mum ask me to put my leg on the boster so i do so. But
i am not use it then i sleep the whole till 5.00 plus in the morning i then sleep. But till afternoon i wake up my leg is
better but the swellen is still the same size so i decided to use ice to put on it and it really work. So now the swellen
part is quite ok but my leg is still in pain when i walk because i forgot to tell my mum to apply and rub another side
of my ankle so i think tomorow should be ok. I think is also GOD that is trying to tell me something because i was
reading Exodus on the bus. I was reading about the plagues Egytians face when the pharaoh don't follow GOD's
instruction to allow all the Israelites to go to the desert to worship GOD. After reading to this from the bible i think
GOD i asking me to spend more time to worship him, spend more time on my QT.Hope that all of you can keep me in prayer. I will continue to pray for
myself,my cell group,family,friend,classmates.
(2 November 2008)
过往的一些想法。
我是否能找到一本或一部书或电视据能让我品尝到人生的酸甜苦辣，高潮起伏？
每个人都有自己的死穴所以有时侯我们需要学会谅解和体谅一些人有情绪的泼动和起伏吧。
(5 November 2008)
MESSADE TO DAP.
To Dap: At first i wanted to ask you to tell lie to your parent that you are going to somewhere then actually
you are going to church. But after thinking i think we should follow the command that god give which is to honour
and obey our parent. So i think the best way is to follow God's way to obey your parent, try to change all your
bad habits and bad attitude. So as to show your parent you are serious and how it had change you. So before your
parent allow you to be a Christian try to show the right attitude to them,to all your friends and to your studys.
Try to score well in your examination to prove that you have change because you have the faith to become a
Christian. By then they will feel that being a christian is nothing wrong and it give you a very big impact in
your life which is good. I think all those problem you face now is some test god is giving you to train your faith.
If you are able to overcome all this your parent will also feel that you are able to be a Christian as it is not
the old Dap they know. The only thing i can tell you which can make your faith stable is when you become a
Christian you are not facing problems yourself. When you face problem you can seek help from God as you pray and
read the bible you will get the answer to the problems. When you face problems you can seek help from your cell
leader,cell sister,cell cousin. Do you wonder why becoming a Christian you can seek help from so many people?
This is because as you become a Christian you are living in a community of God Kingdom. So becoming a Christian
is very fortunate compare to those pre-believer as we christian face any problem we can depend on ourselves,
friends,family,spritual family(cell) and god but those pre-believer can only depend on themself,friends,family.
So continue to have the faith to overcome the problems you face, i am sure you will get into the kingdom of god
soon. I will pray for you that you have the mustard seed faith in god that is so small but it is enough to lead
you to the kingdom of god. I will pray that you may be able to have the determination to face all the problem
and confident to persude your parents. In Jesus Most Almighty Name i Pray. Amen.
(14 November 2008)
TESTIMONY.
Before i receive christ i will not care about thing that i do is good or bad, i wil follow and do the things even
i know that it is wrong. As i am a person that do not want to offence people and so i try to please everyone
around me. Before receive christ i can say is a person that live in my own world and so i do not have much contact
or conversation with people. I feel that everday i am just living and going throught everyday for sake of living,
i do not have any goal,purpose and meaning to live. So as i grow older i start to take my strength as my purpose
of living so when i failed to reach the goals i set in my strength like bowling i am like totally broke down in
mentally and physically. Before i receive chirst the way i see people is by their look and what is their education
level. Before i receive christ i am person that do not have confident in myself and i am a person that do not
feel that i have any strength that make me a great person. I see myself as a very small role in school and in the
family.
I first receive christ in my kindergate school which my form teacher Mrs Cheong share gospel with me by telling me storys in the bible. The second person that share gospel with me is my aunt as i stay at her house since i am born till secondary one every weekend. She also bring me along to join some of her church event like outing and flag day. But at that period of time i am small so i don't have the right to choose my own religion at that period between primary school i am a Christian and Buddist at that time. But after i reach secondary three Jessie brough me to her church which her godfather and godmother she know from a china trip brough her to. It was a normal service and i was asked to say the pray to receive christ. After i receive chirst i had gain more confident in myself as i know what purpose i have for god. I also start to
adjust my purpose of living from bowling which is temporay to god which is more permanent. I had also change my
attitude towards other people like my family,friends and people that badmouth me. I had also change the way
i see people, after receive christ i will see the people look,education level,way she speak,what she speak.
After receive christ i feel more secure as i face problem i know i can seek god and my spiritual family other than
my family and friends. After receiving chirst i started to get interested in Philosophy,literature and psychology.
After receive chirst i also learnt to change my stand and view when i face problem and i had to use different ways
to see and solve problems. Ways which is more effective and clear cut.
(28 November 2008)
沉淀。
这个星期我的心情非常的抚扎所以我就在想我需要的时间来沉垫我的心情应该很长吧。我之前还在想我好心没好报，好心被狗咬因为我好心去照顾我
的奶奶但我却被跳蚤咬得的一身。但我想想我的收获比失去还要多因为我有好好利用到我的时间。当我奶奶在睡觉时我又没有电视节目看我就利用
那个时间来阅读圣今和我借的一些书。我这个星期去了东海岸，打保龄球和一些人出外吃饭。我最近在想我的人生支柱到底是什么呢？
(3 December 2008)
原地踏步。
我觉得那些和我站在同各起点的朋友，死党和同学都已奔向不同介段的跑道了
我好像还在起点原地踏步忧郁，思考和俳回。心里是有和朋友，死党和同学一
样的好奇，可望和向望前面的道路。为什么我还在原地踏步或许是我顾虑和设
现太多倒制我和他们的起点是不一样的。我要面临和突破的问题会更难更多，
这也为常不是一件坏事至少我未来要面临或解决的问题会比较少。我解决问提
的方式会比较成熟，令类，快速有用。我和他们有不同起点倒至我和他的想法
，除事待人，言行居之，思想和官念有很大的不同。所以我和他们很难沟通所
以我很难交到很多知心的朋友。我都需要交比我年几大或想法跟我一或比我的
想法还要成熟的朋友。
(13 December 2008)
POST OF THE WEEK.
It since such a long time i last blog and blog in English as i feel that i have nothing interesting to blog about
and i feel that i can express myself better in Chinese. Anyway i had a interesting,relaxing,enjoyable,enriching,
fun and tired week. As on Monday i went to Si Mei my spritual ah gong house to host the appreciation for all my
spritual ah yi. I really enjoy myself that day as a game master for the station one game "比手画脚“ and as a
audience at the award giving for all the ah yi. As i am the the first station the game master they are suppose to
guess three chinese idiom and they can use English sentence to hint them. Through the game i can see the other
side of all my ah yi as they were guessing and helping to finish the game. As on Tuesday i stay at home to rest
and slack. Wednesday i went out with Henzy,Nelson,Wai Yin and Cyndi to marine square to eat Long John Sliver then
watch BOLT. After that we went to walk around Suntect and then we went to Flyer and eat popeys. We went to Esplande
to eat brownie then walk walk around Marine Square. Till the end we went to Starbucks to drink latte,coffee and
chocolate and crap rubbish till 10.00pm then go home by bus. Yesterday i went out with Eejay ah gong,Shu Jun and
Cyndi to Plaze Singapura the MRT area to eat and is pay by Eejay ah gong again for the fourth time. After dinner
we went to the Plaze Sin the Best connection with ah gong to buy camern then went diaso shop a while then home
sweet home le. For Today i went to Bukit Merah games lab crush centre in the afternoon after that went to eat
Mac with Si Jia Mummy,Wai Yin,Kai Yee,Shu Jun ,Cherie,JuLee ah ma and Michelle ah yi. After the meal Si Jia,
Michelle,Cherie,Shu Jun and me went to Orchard cineleisure Cathay to meet Alvin,Bobby,Nelson and Gabriel to watch
"THE DAY THE EARTH STOOD STILL". The movie's ending was a bit to simple and not so well ended but in the whole is
still quite ok lol. We went to eat at the food court after the show then went to take photo in front of the
Christmas tree outside Hereen. As the Photo is taken Si Jia and Michelle went to take their bus home as for
Shu Jun,Cherie and me went to take MRT. When we were getting ready to cross the traffic light Shu Jun did not
follow up to our speed then she took the different route as Cherie and me. So as both of us was at the opposite
of the road we can just only let Shu Jun walk on her own till the traffic light turn green Cherie and me use the
faster speed to catch up with Shu Jun. Lucky Shu Jun was clever to walk back as she did not saw as in front of
her. After that we went to take the MRT from someset,as we were waiting for the train. A "Weird Aunt" ask me how to
get to Tiong Baru in the end i tell her the way and take the train with her. As we were waiting for the train at
Raffles Place she ask me lots of question then before she leave the train she ask for my number and she miss call
me. So after that i continue my jounery back home. I shall end here.
(15 December 2008)
我不要压力，我要放空！
我要的快乐和自在去了那里
我反复被囚禁在愤怒的国度
我那心里的火山终于忍不住
爆发了
快乐正面乐观都已被爆发
已烝发成了水烝气化成云
落下成雨
落下成雨到我身上
我以失的还能回来吗
我还能变回那以前
那开朗不惧小洁
的自己吗
我还要在那愤怒的国度
被囚禁到那个尖奏
还是根本是我自己囚禁自己
把自己关进黑暗里出不来
我要走出。。。。
(20 December 2008)
FEELING TOWARDS MY LIFE SINCE I AM BORN TILL NOW.
I don't normally blog in English because most of my friend in wretch is from Taiwan so i feel that they might not
be interested to read my blog plus i am better expressing myself in Chinese.Ok let get back to the topic i going
to blog. I feel that since i get into the kindergarden i am a Christian so my behaviour and attitude is quite
mature and health so i did not have the chance to get myself in big trouble. As for other people testimony is
the change of their attitude after receiving christ. As for me i think God had create miracle in my studies as i
never study nursery and till the next year i directly get into K1 and due to some incidence when i was small my
brain function slower than other people that is the same age as me. So i do not know how to write my own name and
interact with other people that is the same age and same class as me till primary 1 God create miracle,i know how
to write my own name and be more open to share and interact with other people. Primary 1 and primary 2 my result
in school was not good as i am failing all my subjects badly and due to early puberty i had lots of pimples that
cost me to lose confidence in myself. But God use my aunt to built up my confidence by bringing me to learnt
piano,swimming,extra lesson and even let me pick up some other sports like bowling,badminton,tennis and golf.
She also let me join bowling competition to gain experience and built up my confidence. As the years go by i get
into primary 5 my school merger and there Concert band in my school so i just join. I did not think that throught
the 2 years in the band i really leanrt lots of things. Things like practice make perfect,many life lesson leanrt
in the band. As my music skill is growing my confidence grow and my perception also change. Throught the years
studies is my stronghold and lion in my life so till now i still fears the step ahead of me in my studies. But
till recently i am thinking how is my testiomy different from other people. I then realise that the miracle god
had created in my life is in my studies,the attitude toward myself,the confidence toward myself. Hope that all of
you can find the purpose God have for you.
(30 December 2008)
REFLECTION I WRITE FOR MY CHURCH CELL RETREAT 2008.
Reflection for the cell retreat 2008.(Vivien)
I really feel very refresh and renew as I go through all the session in the camp.
As I go through session by Ju Lee I know that all of us is free to love everyone.
As Christ has let us to so we need to take charge and responsibility of it.
Things that controlling us not to love are: 1.slavery to the flash: Our sinful nature
= absorbed in my selfish interest than the needs of others= serve others to fulfil own desires.
2. Slavery to the Law: under the law = interest in keeping commandments to establish own merit than loving others.
Consequences of slavery = we use law to do judgement to other people that make us cannot love others.
Meaning of freedom to love: 1. Expressed be Christ through Love
2. Expression of true faith. Freedom in Christ is freedom to love. I also feel that why I cannot love others
around me is because I am easily influence by others people comment towards other people.
That lead me to have bad impression of the people and I will judge the people behaviour, actions and \
speech. After Ju Lee’s session we went to Claire and Cherie’s baptism. I feel a great encouragement and touch
as I saw Claire and Cherie go through the baptism and the sharing of testimony. As we were in the room
getting to sleep we also spent some time to let Eunice share what she feel today and we also spent some
time to pray for her. As we were doing all those sharing I really feel that I know more about all the 144.
For the second day we get to do our quiet time in a group in the early morning outside of the lobby area
with the fresh air. On that day God show me Deuteronomy 8:3, it says: He humbled you, causing you to hunger
and then feeding you with manna, which neither you nor your fathers had know, to teach you that man does \
not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord. When I finish reading
this I had a great feeling that God is trying to tell me that as we were going to eat our physical
meal everyday, as we were spending time to read his words everyday is taking the spiritual meal
he prepare for us. So I feel very encourage to write his words as I do my quiet time. For EeJay’s session I feel
that it is very important to balance our life went or you will feel that the power that is pushing you is
going weaker. After listening to the session I finally know why I get so drift away from God is because I did
not make the effort to spend time to do my quiet time and praying. After that we went to the promise land
to play the game ‘Traffic jam’, tiring of rope and the throwing and passing of things. Things I learnt from
the game ‘Traffic jam’ is that we need to learnt to be a member or leader at times, we also need to have
trust ,communication in the group and we also must learnt to endure the heat, the pain on the leg to
create unity in the group. As for the second game I learnt that everyone in the game has a part to
play no matter how long or short your rope is as some of the rope can be the part that supports some
can be the part to strengthen the rope. The different length represents the strength and weakness of
all us, as all the rope is tie together all our weakness is cover up. For the last game I learnt is to have
fun. Pastor Adrian session I learnt what is the step we have to take to get to God’s purpose
for us. 1. Dream big, 2. Learnt to work as a team(Unity), 3.Fight for God. I also learnt to use my Faith
to believe God ability to lead me to his purpose neither than faith to believe my ability to God purpose.
I also learnt things from the small things that happened in the camp like using of different toilet.
As different toilet had different weakness and different strength, it is the matter of you looking at
which view. As there is one toilet that is dark but you can put your soap on the water pipe that connect
to the water head. For the other toilet that is bright the water pipe that is connected to the water head is
short so the soap can only be place on the floor. The different toilet represent the different situation God
had put as in, it is had you see the God side of the situation that can help you. Before the camp I feel quiet
drifted away from God but through the camp I once again feel God’s Love, Grace, Concern, Touch and Mercy. As
I open my Heart to feel God’s Love as God show me that my Heart is lock and the key is with me and he is trying
his best to get in but he can’t. After I saw it I Suddenly, feel God’s Love and I saw that the lock is
open by the key in my hand. At that moment I burst into tears and I started to let out my stress and burden
and I started to repentant. After a while Si Jia came to pray for me and I feel a great relieve after that.
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