微微安的私密地带。

(24 February 2010)

FIRST POST OF THE YEAR 2010.

I had a really a great rest for the past few months 

after my 'O' lvl till now seem school is starting

on 12 April.Recently i will be spending my time 

on facebook, read books, do devotion, go for 

church service, cell group, 40 days of pray 

and helping my mum to do house work. I was 

thinking when should i start my revision 

for Poa, the last time i touch my school 

books and notes is during my 'O' lvl 

period. I had not started packing my 

stuff that is needed for 'O' lvl. 

Recently went for two days of 40 days

of prayer, indeed I am fill with great

excitement and joy to be there and 

pray for the church, G12 conference,

senior Ps and TGIF. On Monday as all

of us were ask to pray for a vision

by Ps Yo I saw a matchstick which is

going to extinguish but another hand

holding another matchstick appeared to

relight the matchstick that is going 

to extinguish. After i saw the vision 

i was strongly encourage to look forward

to all the event that is going to take 

place in the upcoming year. Things like

setting up a cell ourself is really 

challenging and exciting to look forward

to. i finish two books in two months but 

i only use few hours to finish the whole 

book. On January i finish 

一个人的东京，张芸京361度 within 9 hours,On 

February i finish 最美丽的逞强 by 刘品言

within 6 hours. Ya right i remember i 

am also now trying to complete the whole 

bible within a year using the devotion 

book.I still have 4 chinese books waiting

for to complete. Hope to blog as soon as 

possible.

(23 March 2010)

TESTIMONY FOR TGIF 2010.

My Life before receiving Christ is like I am walking in a maze which I can't see a clear direction in front of me,

I just keep walking till I see a wall that is blocking my walk which is some obstacles and failures in life which

cause me to breakdown and I will restart my journey in the maze again with all the wounds. I have very low 

self-esteem due to my early puberty which cause lots of pimples on my face compare to the others as well as the 

time i need to spend to pick up a skill or knowledge is much slower compare to the rest. As my parents are not 

Christians they would say negative things things like I am stupid, I am ugly, I am slow in learning compare to my

Siblings. Which cause my low self-esteem to get worse as i grown up with all this deeply rooted in my heart and 

mind. Due to all this thoughts in me I am not confident in my studies, look and ability to pick up skills. When

I face failure I will blame it to the speed I pick up a knowledge and skill which built up a fear and barrier in 

me to try out new things. I am not determine in things I do, I will give up easily, I can't take failure, I can't 

take endures in hardship. I felt very disappointed, lose , purposeless when I get back my PSLE results as well 

as my posting of school which is not the dream school I wanted to get in. I get very depressed, lose, moody and 

pointless in Secondary one and two as I don't find a purpose in the school and my best friends in primary school

did not come along with me to the school. So I start to hide my unhappiness from everyone and I became a loner in

school which i does not make friends with others by being very quiet in class, always reading a book in class. 

I also blame my speed of learning on marching as I am not able to learnt as fast as the rest and causing the 

whole team to keep repeating with me which lead me to quit the school concert band.I remember I give up learning 

piano because I am not able to pass the grade 1 test although I had spend a 

lot of effort practicing.


I first receive Christ in my kindergarden school which my form teacher Mrs Cheong share gospel with me by telling 

me story in the bible. The second person that share gospel with me is my aunt Which I stay at her house since I'm 

born till secondary one every weekend. She also bring me along to join some of her church events such as outing 

and flag day. But at that period of time my parents is against the idea of me being a Christian which is different

from the rest of the family members. But after I get to secondary three Jessie which is my primary school 

schoolmate brought me to church which her godfather and godmother she know from a china trip brought her to. That

day was just a normal service with the worship and sermon by the pastor. After the service we were lead by the

pastor to say the sinners prayer which at the very moment I say it but I did not raise up my hand when pastor

is going to pray for those who say it for the first time. I was asked by my Jessie to go front to follow a pastor 

to a room to be pray for and say the sinners prayer once again with the pastor. I did not feel anything but lose

and anxious about the whole thing that has take place before I have the time to calm down and sit down to 

consider the choose I had make for myself.

(5 April 2010)

TESTIMONY SHARED AT THE TGIF.

My Life before receiving Christ I have very low self-esteem due to outbreak of pimples on my face and I am much 

slower in picking up a skill or knowledge compare to the rest. As my parents are not Christians they would say 

negative things which cause my low self-esteem to get worse as i grown up with all this deeply rooted in my heart 

and mind. I felt very disappointed and purposeless when I get back my PSLE results as well as my posting of school 

which is not the school I wanted to get in. I get very depressed, lose, moody and pointless in Secondary one and 

two as I don't find a purpose in the school so I start to hide my unhappiness from everyone and I became a loner in 

school which I does not make friends with others by being very quiet in class, always reading a book in class. 

When I get to secondary three Jessie which is my primary school schoolmate brought me to church which her 

godfather and godmother she know from a china trip brought her to. That day was just a normal service with the 

worship and sermon by the pastor. After the service we were lead by the pastor to say the sinners prayer which at

the very moment I say it but I did not raise up my hand when pastor is going to pray for those who say it for the 

first time. I was asked by my Jessie to go front to follow a pastor to a room to be pray for and say the sinners

prayer once again with the pastor. All this remind me of my form teacher Mrs Cheong and my aunt which share gospel

with me by telling me story in the bible. 

After I receive Christ I start to be more confident in my studies, look, and ability to do things. As I read 

through God's word I know that everyone is wonderfully, beautifully and perfectly created by God. We are all 

created for a purpose so those problems, obstacles and trials we face are just a process to let us grown into the

person that God can use. Those process take place to refine us from a clay into a pot, a ore into a diamond to 

shine for the Lord. My cell leader also share with me some common problem she also face and she encourage me and 

pray for me. My cellmate also help me in my studies by studying with me during Sunday and Saturday for my 'O' 

level. My Character was reconstructed through the camps in church, prayers from my cell leader and cellmate and 

duty, role and task given by my cell leader. I also get to know more people from church through the camps and 

event take place which widen my social circle. Although I did not receive the ’O’ level result I wanted which 

lead me into a ITE but I feel much peace compare to the time I receive my PSLE result as I know that it is part of

God’s plan for me. Plan which will not harm us but prosper us and give us a hope and a future.

(12 April 2010)

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL IN BISHAN ITE.

Starting of the day was quite ok because I manage to reach school 

on time as I leave my house early than the time I plan before hand.

I was not caught in the jam as I travel by bus that is going through 

the highway near Adam Rd. But due to the timing and the venue the school

choose for us to assemble which is the school foyer is super hot. All the

April intake pupils that is sitting on top were sweating like mad and one of

them is me. The leaders that is leading us through the orientation are trying 

to break the ice by asking for respond. 

After that we are lead by our respective leader which is Hui Min and Jia Hong 

to another venue to play some icebreaker games like wacker, blow wind blow 

and slash and bang. Before the games we are given 10 minutes toilet break 

at that time I am able to break ice with one of my classmate by self-intro

myself to her and her name is Rui Ting. 

Through the games I also get to know some of my classmates name. After the

games we were touring around the school follow by lunch break after that.

During the break and in between the games I am able to share more to Rui

Ting about some experience I have in church and my original character which 

is not so outgoing. I believe I can make some impact on her as I get to talk

to her more. I think I can lead her to be my cell sister or cell member as the

40 days of Faith is coming and all of us need to lead our own cell.

As we gathering back from our break we were lead to our own classroom to

meet our class advicer which is Mdm Lim. We were asked to fill up our

student profile and copy down some of the important things. Really looking

forward to the lesson that is going to take place on Wednesday as the Orientation

will take place for three days. i also get to know some other people in the class

like Ming Lin , Xiao Hui, Hui Ting, Hui Ping and a lot more. Hope that I am able

to bring good influence, joy and blessings to all of my classmates. I also look

forward to the lovely morning time which I spent with God each morning in his

words and his presence. God bless all of You and Good night!

(19 April 2010)

上空浓罩着一片低迷。

我想我真的累了， 我不知还能撑多久。

我想不久之后我会被打回原行。 变回

那个自我感觉良好，沉默不语，不善于

他人交谈的书虫。但这些都好像当头棒 

喝。我不是有意要怎么忧郁但一切就像

海啸和河水藩滥一样来的好无预警。真

的希望一切的低迷能过去。等待下一个

雨过天晴的彩虹和蓝蓝的一片天空。

(20 May 2010)

WORDS AND MEMORIES TO MY BELOVED GRANHMOTHER.

Things that I had wrote on 9 October 2007 4.22 Pm to my Grandmother that had passed away on Monday 17 May 2010 

in the morning 9 plus. Titled: 到外婆家的感想。

我在上个新期五去了奶奶家后忽然有点感触在半夜十二点二十五分

在一张纸上写下“每天在家睡觉，吃早餐，午餐和晚餐，吃药。

最希望，可望，盼望和丝念的都是你。你一出现在我眼前的那一刻

我全部的视现都转到你的身上。我对奶奶的感想：在跟你谈话的内容，

你对我的态度和一举一动我都能体会到你对我的丝念和。当我从妈妈

口中知道你还记得我以前有说过“相信揶稣你的命就会比较长，在那一

刻我真的有一种说不出的感动。我奶奶一直说有空要去看她，在我离开

的那一刻我就有一种想法。 我就主动给了她的两个有这岁月痕迹的脸

颊个一个吻。在我离开后我望后看,我就直看到她依依不舍得表情。现

在过了四小时我回想起来心里还会感到无丝的感动，唉伤和感伤

心里也在默默的流泪和感慨，眼里也在泛泪。

Every time a negative thing, situation and circumstances take place I will be very negative and narrow minded

on the outcome. But through the years God had train me to looking in more than one perspectives. Although all of 

us teared today the moment when my grandmother was been push into the machine to be burned into ashes. But I

believe the tears all of shed are Tears of Joy than Tears of Sorrow. As all of us believe my granny had went TIVI

back to our Lord Jesus which is able to take care of her better than us. As God is our creator which will turned

Sorrow into Joy, Failure into Victory, Ashes into Beauty and Darkness into Light. Looking forward to a new 

beginning, start, purpose, breakthrough and miracle to take place. As the GDOP and 40 Days Of Faith is coming 

really hope to see breakthrough and the Faith Goal we had wrote down during G12 conference to take place at the

end of this Year. Hope to see all of us Youth to reach up to be a leader to lead a cell group. God Bless All! 

All Glory to God! PTL!

(23 June 2010)

TIME, ACTIVITIES AND SURROUNDING CAN MOULD A PERSON.

Bowling Alley

I realize I spend my entire childhood in the bowling alley. Which I am able to share 

lots of rhings related to bowling to People older than me. Through bowling I am force to face success,

failure,stress, sorrow, joy, strength and weakness at the age of seven. It might be due to this reason

I am much mature in my thought compare to the others peers.

Boon Lay Secondary

I believe I had develop a kind of self-understanding and self- explain method which I myself had benefit 

and I had use it on explaining things to my classmate.I think I pick up the ability from my Chemistry,

Physics, Combine Humanities and Principles Of Accounts teacher. I learnt from the way they summaries things

and explaining things.


Faith Community Baptist Church 

Bible study, Cell Group and meditation on the Bible help me to improve my analyzing skills. Chatting session

with leaders in church, Processing after Sermon ,Sharing Session in ,Youth Camp, Cell Retreat, Cell outing, 

Encounter Camp, School Of Leaders 1 and 2, Teens Idol Camp and 'O' and 'A' Levers Camp. Small Chat during 

lunch after service with fellow cell sisters and cousins. All this mole me into a person that is very self-

reflective and I learnt to see things in more than one perspective.

(8 July 2010)

ROMANS TALK REVEALED SOME DIRECTION AND TRUTH.

It is really a blessing to listen to Pastor Khong sharing as I really learnt alots

of solution to the things I have in mind yesterday releated to relationship with

friends. I also get to understand the truth that our thinking, understanding, 

perspetive, reaction and solution is different compare to our pre-believer friends.

The part that I learnt most is about working with difficult people. As they 

accuse us from certain issue need to bless them back and not revenge.Pastor Khong 

also says that our emotion should be control by other people. When Someone make you

angry means the people is controlling you. So I choose to set myself free once and

for all because the Lord had set us free from sins and our bondages. I use a very

commanding tone to sms my friend. That lead her to say out all the reason she have

towards the negative attitude she have towards me.So I choose to give in and asked 

for apologise but the other party choose to say " I don't see a need". Which I 

choose to believe that she do not want to close the case with me. As I don't want

to be affected by her anymore I choose to ignore her presence. I still making a

decision whether to leave the clique which will cause some my frend in the clique 

to nag on me. Saying that I am running away from the problems and not solving it.

I start to realize that it is not the character that put you into certain 

circumstances but is the people that God had place among us. Which place us into 

the circumstance to leanrt some truth,go through some trials, to mole us and let

us see a breakthrough in us. I see that it might be part of the devil's plan for

me to reach out to my friends in the 40 Days Of Faith. I admit that i being 

defeated by the devil. But I also see that this clique of friends might not be the 

group of people God want to reach out to.

WORDS SHARE DURING WORSHIP.

Code I saw on one of art Box notebook.
DANCE
As if no one is watching.
SING
As if no one is hearing.
LOVE
As if no one had hurt you.
LIVE
As if you are living in Heaven.

Changing of the Code if I am the author.

(Worship the Lord)
DANCE and SING
As if the only audience is God.

(Walk with the Lord)
LOVE
As if God had mend our heart as he had died on the
cross and we are being reborn by the spirit.

LIVE
As if you are living in heaven. As we change the way we 
think, behave, dream and speak to live in the 4th dimension.

(24 August 2010)

SUDDEN BREAK DOWN.

I don't really know why and what is the reason for the sudden break down today

which I totally can't take control of. Maybe is God Showing me that I had not

fully depend on him, I had not really caught the freedom he have for us as Child

of God. I think I should go and watch the "I CAN BE HEALED" video again. I am looking

forward to understand the purpose God have for me. :D The holiday which is coming to 

an end. What had I really done during this holiday? Doing my quiet time, Finish a 

chinese storybook which is about love and mysterious criminal case. Did i really 

spend enought time with the Lord to worship him and practice my spiritual gifts?

Thinking I should continue prophecies to the people around me. When the Spiritual

warfare will come towards me?

Looking forward to the success in the 40 Days Of Faith! :D

(25 September 2010)

PEOPLE THAT LIVE IN A ENVIRONMENT WITHOUT GOD. (PEOPLE THAT LIVE A 

SELF CENTERED LIFE.)

Normally when we mention that people that 

live in self-centered life, we will picture

them chasing after things of the world like

examples: Money, Friends, Frame, Success,

Recognise and Praise. But people of the Lord 

will live in God-centered life which he will 

give all glory, praise, success and thanksgiving

to the Lord. As the person believe that all this

is given and blessed by the Lord.


People that live a God-centered life views, is

that people that live a self-centered life is 

foolish, childish and immature.


But do people that live a self-centered life also

feel that people that life a God-centered life 

also foolish, stupid and immature? 

Maybe only God knows the answer :P

(30 December 2010)

YEAR END THANKSGIVING TOWARDS PEOPLE.

Through the year of 2010 there were many 

Ups and Downs, Joy and Sorrow, 

Boring moments and exciting moments,

New and Old people that I meet, Busy and Relax moments,

Touching moments and hurtful moments.

I want to give thanks to the Lord for giving me such

a eventful 2010. 

Firstly I want to give thanks to the Lord for the people around

me that blessed me. All the people from JU Lee Cell group,

Jun Hao Cell group, Michelle Cell Group. Si Jia, Cheryl, Cai Yun

Wai Yin, Cyndi, Jessie and the three girls that had joined our cell group.

All the people I know from Pastor Sook San Tribe,the encounter lessons,

the post encounter lessons, the SOL 1 lessons, the SOL 2 lessons as well as

people from the 'N','O','A' leavers, Poly, JC and ITE Camp. Last but not

least Pastor Khong, Pastor Nina, Pastor Sook San and FCBC.

I want to thank all of the above that had accompany me through my walk with

God. Each and everyone of you had impact me and blessed me in a very unique way!



Secondly I want to thank people that I know from the Taiwan trip 

from Bishan ITE campus and from Taiwan which had brought 

lots of Joy and exciting to me.


Thirdly I want to thank all the people I get to know from the 你在囧什么？ Programme,

the 制作组，the host Lee Teng and Pei Fen, all the guest, all the students that participant

and my best buddy “破铁头”.



Fourthly all the 京迷 from Jing Evolution Fan Club, 京迷 from all around the world,

小蓝 supporters and 小蓝蜂！